Saturday, April 27, 2013

My new blog name.

So, after staying up just thinking and praying about the new change. The name hit me as a quote that I know very well came across my mind.

“The fact that I am a woman does not make me a different kind of christian,But the fact that I am a christian does make me a different kind of woman.”
― Elisabeth Elliot

I strive daily to be a different kind of woman. A woman that is not of the world but is of God. I want people to see the Jesus difference in me, I want them to see what God can do!

My blog address from hear on forth starting tomorrow will be

I seriously can't wait! I'm so excited. I will be posting on why this name was chosen this week. :) Be blessed friends!!

 Follow on Bloglovin

Friday, April 26, 2013

A name.

Hey lovelies, Don't you just love those nights when you can't sleep?! Why can't I sleep do you ask? Well, because I have a million things running through my mind... Well, one thing really!

These past couple of days I have really felt led to change the name of this blog.. Why? I honestly don't know. It's one of those things to where I just gotta say "Hey God, Let your will for this blog be my will." After all that's why I blog. I pray that His will be done on this blog and every aspect of my life as well. Because I know nothing I do is meaningful unless His beautiful hand is upon it. I just want Him to have all the glory. That's it!

So yea, that's pretty much why I'm still up this late at night... & by this late at night I mean 10:02 pm.. I've never been much of a late owl.. Though Owls are pretty cool!

But anyways, I just wanted to give all my readers a heads up of what's happening... I'm hoping to receive a name before Wednesday so I can have like a total blog makeover for my Birthday.. I don't know why but blog makeovers excite me! We shall see what the Lord has planned.

The Newlywed game {link up}

Today I am linking up with the beautiful  Karla and  Veronica   for the link up today!!
1.  What is the funniest thing your spouse has done? 
Oh gosh, He's done so many things that made me laugh until my eyes popped out (Not literally!!)
So, I'll just tell you a very memorable thing I will never forget! It was the Sunday after Leon and I were Married and He had to open the service with announcements and prayer. As he was doing the announcement he mentioned "So, as you guys know Heather and I were married on Friday... And the Lord said be fruitful and multiply WOOOHOO!!!   That is a moment at our church we will never forget.. I believe he put everyone in a laughing spell that day haha!
She married me. haha! 

2.  What is your idea of a good date?
I'm a very simple lady.. My idea of a good date is a coffee date. Going to a unknown coffee shop as we talk about our relationship with Jesus and each other. Holding hands while asking random questions in between like "If you could change your name, what would it be?" And after that going for a long walk as we watch the sun go down. With lots of pictures to follow after. #Hopelessromantichere!
A fancy date, with good quality quisine, expensive wine, quality time and  heart to heart conversations.
3.  What is your favorite memory of you and your spouse?
Probably our first date! It was wonderful! 
The honeymoon ALL the way. 
4.  What are some activities/hobbies that you and your spouse do together?
 We love to go on walks, watch hit TV series, and go out to dinner. :)
Yep, Heather nailed it!
5.  Why do think your marriage/relationship is successful?
Because God is and forever will be the center of it! Our relationship isn't successful because of us. In fact if It wasn't for God we probably wouldn't have been together in the first place.. Our relationship was founded on faith and with the help of our Main Love it will forever live in faith until we both go home!
Because of Jesus!! And communication..... And sex.
6.  What is your spouse's dream job?  Is he/she currently in it?
Yes, I believe so! Leon's dream job is whatever The Lord wants him to do. And for the time being it is a police officer. But later he wants to be a Pastor. It has been spoken over him his whole life. Though Leon and I both believe He's a pastor now.. It doesn't take a certificate to be a Pastor. It takes a man after God's own heart. He will definitely be Pastoring on the streets.
 A house wife and yes. :)
7.  What is the best gift your spouse ever gave you?
This may sound ewy goey to some but if I were to answer honestly, I would say himself.. And his whole self. Sex in Marriage is the best gift a man and a woman could give each other. I feel so upset when the media teaches otherwise.
Her Love.
8.  Where do you see you and your spouse in the next 10 years?
I see us doing a lot more ministry, being better off financially and Lord willing more kids. Triplets maybe??
Deeper in love with a much deeper groweth in the Lord! Triplets huh??
9.  Is marriage everything you expected it to be?  Is it much harder than you thought it would be? Why?
I was actually gonna do a blog post about this in the future! I still can I guess :) The answer is yes and no. Sometimes it's better than I thought it would be and other days I really miss the single years. When your married you have to be 100% selfless and  100%  sold out to love. Sometimes it's hard to let go of self and put on selfless.  Especially as a Police officers wife I am learning this. And Jesus is teaching me day by day to be the wife He wants me to be..But Leon makes being married  much easier! He's so easy to love! <3
It is what I expected. I expected there to be hard times and I expected there to be good times.  
10.  Who is your spouse's celebrity crush and do you look like them?
Haha Leon and I really don't have celebrity crushes. Back in the day I crushed on Leon so much I actually told him that in a text. "If you were a celebrity, You'd be my celebrity crush." Not that we don't find celebrities good looking at all. But honestly, I have not met anyone cuter than my man in uniform!  
Ha, I'm her celebrity crush! <333
Pictures of Leon and I during the early years of our courtship.. Leon's man handling my guitar. :)
OOOOh!! And don't forget to follow up on this Link up Starting on Wednesday!  Where you get to answer 5 questions about your munchkin, being a mom (or pregger mom) and other five fun questions about motherhood! I already have a co-host for this week but I'm taking offers for next week if your interest PLEASE email me here! Or comment below. :)  Be blessed sweet friends!

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Happy 5 Months Evie!


My piglet's 5 months! Where has the time gone? I feel as though she was just a newborn a few weeks ago. Now she's five months. One month before she becomes half a year old. She really is growing! I have really been loving to experience life and adventures through the eyes of my precious Evelynne. Noticing the newness of  what Spring has to offer, watching momma worship Jesus  (And believe it or not, I really believe babies worship God too! I have no doubt they see Angels as well.)  And seeing new faces. Being a mom is everything I expected and more.. I am more in love, more tired, more joyful and more than blessed. I thank God for where He has put me in life. I am just very blessed. I love you Evie, Happy 5 months!!
 At five months my sweet Evie:

Has two bottom teeth. (Seriously people, I'm considering pumping!) She looks so adorable with two bottom teefers. 

Is officially eating solid's for breakfast and dinner.

Smiles a lot more often. 

Is reconizing faces. (Especially daddy's)

Laughs at the silliest things such as dandy loin puffs blowing in the air. 

Recognizes herself in the mirror. And gets   really excited.

Can get on all fours and attempt to crawl but it turns into slugging.

Can drink out of her sippy cup and easily hold things.

Can sit up for a certain amount of time. 

Loves grabbing her toes!
Happy five months Sweet Evie!!Mommy and daddy love you soo much!

 three things Thursday
 3 Things you LOVE to eat

Oh gosh, this is a hard one! I'm a girl who just loves to eat.. But I guess I can try to narrow it down to three things I do love to eat and would want right now.

1. Panera Bread's Strawberry Poppy seed Chx salad! Did I mention I know how to make that salad by the way? Trust me I didn't just work at Panera bread to clean the bathrooms. I learned a little something too! 

2. Five guys Cheeseburgers.. Yes, I'm that kinda girl!

3. Ice cream... MmmmMMm! 

Don't forget to link up with the lovely Myranda  Kristyn

Have a blessed Thursday Lovelies!!  
 <a href="">Follow my blog with Bloglovin</a>

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Purity, Freedom and our identity.

 I will never forget the first morning. The first morning I woke up feeling shame. 
I felt like I had engaged in a series of fights. Battles I believed I couldn't win. I felt beaten up by a giant I could not defeat.  Chased by a darkness that I just couldn't ignore, I heard whispers of defeat dancing all around my shaken body. As my heart and mind had become beaten by this sudden war. I felt defeated, condemned as tears of pain ran down my red cheeks, my soul hiding it's face as I cried out "Jesus. What have I done?" 

I remember crying until their were no more tears to cry while trying to get my act together before my morning shift. This was the morning after my beliefs, my purity had been compromised. The morning after something happened I thought wouldn't be possible. I was strong enough to fight off lust. Or so I thought.

What is "lust" anyways? If you were to ask me that question a few years ago, I would have told you that "Lust" is a "sexual desire" one has for someone else outside of marriage. Something I didn't have a problem with. But if you were to ask me now. I would tell you that "Lust" is a dangerous root that comes in all kinds of  forms and disguises.

I say this with complete honesty. From what I can remember sexually desiring a man has never been a desire of mine. Sex was something I personally didn't feel the need to have. In fact I probably wouldn't have minded living the rest of my life as a virgin.. I have often heard women speak of "Sex" as just something women did for their husbands to please them or to just get them to shut up. I've thought "Sex" was for the man only. And after being sexually molested by a few family members and old friends being too afraid to say "no" and to fearful of saying anything to my parents. I had no interest in sex. So, lust, I didn't think was a problem for me.

Love.. Who would have thought that Lust could come in such a form? Of course not the "perfect love" that Jesus died to give us. But a desire to be loved. I was so lustful after love that I would have done anything to get it! And when you have such a desire to be loved without an ability to say "no" things can go very wrong.

That was me. To be loved was all that I wanted. Yes, I was a Christian my whole life.. But a religious Christian. I knew Jesus loved me but I couldn't grasp any of it. I sung the songs of "His love" but "Is it really true?" I often wondered.. I doubted many times. How could he have loved somebody like me? I to easily compared the love of God to my father's love.. I've always felt like I had to earn my fathers love. And because of that I never thought God was capable of loving me because I was not worthy. When in fact. All Jesus wanted to do was love on me but I was to desperate to feel the love of my earthly father who often rejected me that I shut Jesus out. And there was no room for His love in my heart.. Because my heart was filled with other things.. And that I didn't realize. I would go on and on in my mind of what I could do to earn the love of Christ. To be able to feel His love inside of me. And that is when I decided that I'd be pure for Jesus. And I would earn His love that way. So, all this time I'd talk about "Purity" About how I"m going to be 100% pure until marriage. I was under the impression that if I did that. I would be pleasing God and my dad for sure. And that there, was when Purity became my identity.I haven't  realized until now that I wasn't trying to remain pure for anyone but myself. So that I could get the satisfaction and so that I would get the attention I wanted and so that I could wear the halo for a while.

I didn't  find my identity in Christ at all. Honestly, I never thought I had one in Him.. I just thought the only thing I had was purity. It was my "Identity" And after I met my husband Leon. That lustful feeling of needing to be loved came back.. (Actually, I don't even think it left in the first place.)

For months, I had felt a battle, like the signal sound of warning filling my ears. Painful memories had come back, as the painful things returned and happened again for the last four years of my life. Making me feel like an object, a victim, worthless all over again. These bad memories had been surfacing my mind like dead  rotting fish in the lake as the enemy whispers in my ear just how worthless he convinced me I am.

And before I knew it, without even realizing it. I've allowed my desire to be loved take over. I had surrendered to a struggle with purity.

The next morning my feet hit the floor in shame.. I even felt too condemned to pray or even read my bible.. I've compromised purity, the identity I had.. There was nothing left of me.  My heart was broken, darkness overshadowed the light. Beating me constantly. Reminding me of what had happened the day before.. Leon and I didn't actually have sex.. But in my mind it wouldn't have made a difference at the time. I was ruined. There was no healing for me as my heart scattered across my bedroom floor into a million tiny pieces.

 I look back at that night as a new person. I no longer feel shame about those nights. But instead I thank God. I thank God for creating me  with perfection, making me new for His Glory. 

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17

I thank God for working all things out from my mistakes and fixing them. Because He loves me. And making me more white and more pure today than I have ever been.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

And I thank God for opening my eyes and reminding me each day with love. Just how much I need Him to be my identity. And nothing else. 
To this day I don't think of the past as regretful memories, or painful memories. I no longer soak in tears because of them, I no longer give myself a pitty party because of what I have done.. Who has time for that?

I now look at the past as a battle that has been defeated, a victory that has taken place, a war that has been won.

A situation the enemy had planned to ruin me, But God's love had taken over and He renewed me.

I can look back and just thank God for loving me so much and taking me out of the situation I was in. 

My dear friends, these are not empty words I promise... This is not an empty testimony, It's not an empty story from one's past. It is a story of one's mistake that God has taken and made it beautiful. As if nothing had ever happened.. So today my friends I want to encourage you!

Sister, His passion for us is deep. His love  wants to overtake our whole bodies. And His kindness, it wants to convince us  that abandonment is not who He is, despair is not His language and punishment is not how He works. And He will do whatever it takes until we know this in our very souls. Some of us run around like pain and fear has the authority, like our experiences hold the scepter, like it is our memories that are stronger than death. (And until now that was me.) He extends the invitation to us to just pause. Pause and take all that authority we have stored up in our past and pour it out on Jesus. The Cross broke the power that we think this thing has over us and He is on the throne! Claiming us to be His bride.

And even today, like a subtle breeze, Jesus is whispering into our hearts reminding us that the authority that raised Him up out of the grave is the authority that's burning  inside of us.  We can use that authority or we don’t. The choice is ours. But there is a better option, a more beautiful answer.
The more we use that authority, the easier it gets. The more we believe we are who He says we are, the simpler it becomes.
Because purity is so easy when we know who we are.
You are too worthy and too valuable and too loved and too beautiful for this to destroy you. Don’t believe the lie that freedom is a reward. Because it’s not. Free is who you are! We are His Beloved.

Monday, April 22, 2013

Over coffee

If I were having coffee with you, I would tell you that we have experienced so many new things with Evelynne this past month. Like a reality hit me of just how much she's growing and continues to grow. I enjoy experiencing these new things my daughter is accomplishing. It's so rewarding!

 At four Months we gave our little Piglet some solids. Since then we have learned that we have a major sweet tooth on our hands. I made her some applesauce and she loved it!! But when the veggies came around she wasn't taking to friendly to it at first.. But just yesterday she started to actually like squash! And even opened her mouth to receive it! But the green beans are still on the "hate list" for this young lady.
Last week we started her on apple juice in a sippy cup.. She wasn't sure what to think of it at first. But now she actually loves her juice and her sippy cup! I've noticed this girl loves to do things by herself.

If I was having coffee with you, I would you that we put our precious girl in her own room this month. So she's been sleeping alone for about two weeks now. I honestly think she sleeps better now and so do Leon and I! It's great having a room to ourselves again. And I believe Evelynne likes it too! Leon's Colones were cramping her style!!
We have seriously been enjoying these 80 degree weather days! Evelynne and I have been on a walk almost every day this week! :) It's been wonderful!

If I were having coffee with you this morning, I would tell you that I was slightly getting "Baby Fever" this morning as I was thinking about Baby Riley #2.. It was for a VERY slight moment though! Leon and I both don't want to get pregnant again until Evie is at least 18 Months and We are better off financially.  :) Plus piglet is surely keeping me off my toes right now. And I really want this time and season to be focused fully on her.

If I were having coffee with you, I would tell you that Leon starts hitting the streets on Wednesday and gets his gun and badge Tuesday. I can't believe he's no longer in the academy.. His hours are going to be longer and totally different from here on... I honestly don't know what to expect. The only thing I do know at this point is that God is with us and for us! And that right there my friend, is most important! =)

 If I were having coffee with you, I would tell you how much I appreciate you, how much I love you and most importantly how much Jesus loves you!
This is what I would tell you if I we were having coffee together. What would you tell me?