Wednesday, October 10, 2012

A much needed break.

I was going for a Jesus walk today. Talking to Jesus and saying a few words to Evelynne as well. As I was walking  my mind came to reality and I realized I will be having my angel in my arms in about four weeks. The time I will have in these last four weeks of pregnancy I am never going to get back. I also feel deeply encouraged by Jesus that it's time to take a break for these last few weeks. Not just from blogging but computer in general considering it is very time consuming. I'm not saying you won't hear from me or I wont be on until I deliver. Of course I will. I will pop a post in every now and then to let all of you loving and faithful followers know how I'm doing. I just won't be posting any "Digging Deeper" posts (even though it's sad because I just started this project) And regular daily posts. I'm mainly taking this break to spend more time with Jesus. Getting lost in Him deeper, getting to know Him more as He prepares me in my ministry to be the best mom I can be. The ministry of  a wife giving my husband as much as attention as I can give. I believe spending more time with Jesus will prepare me for this. I know really He's the only one that can! I can read all the books, take advice from all the blogs, talk to all the moms. But if I don't raise my daughter in the love of Jesus, If I let my life revolve around my family before Christ. There is no way I could call myself a successful mom. Because only Jesus can give me rest when I feel like loosing my mind. And that is exactly what Jesus wants me to do these next few weeks and the rest of my life. To rest in Him. So, I will be taking a break from the computer to go on more lovely walks, crochet my pretty girl some hats, read to her and sit by her bassinet, and most importantly spend as much time in the presence of God as I possibly can!

  Thank you everyone for your support, encouragement and prayers!

Just a little longer.

Just a little longer until I get to see your sweet face.
Just a little longer until I experience a mother and daughter embrace.
To kiss your little nose and tickle those ticklish toes.
Your my little Princess. Everybody knows.
I've been thinking about you a lot.
About who you will be.
Will you look like daddy or will you look like me?
I guess I'll have to wait and see.
I can't wait to see your personality.
Just a little longer I will see you finally.
It's amazing how someone so small could capture my heart.
My darling you've had a special place there right from the start.
It's hard to believe that I can love you more than I do now.
But every single day this love for you seems to grow  somehow.
I'm counting the days, weeks and no more months.
Carrying you for soon to be nine months has made me stronger.
And I'm so glad to say now "Just a little longer".

Monday, October 8, 2012

I know where I'm supposed to be.

 the older women likewise, that they be reverent in behavior, not slanderers, not given to much wine, teachers of good things— that they admonish the young women to love their husbands, to love their children,            Titus 2:3-4

These last couple of weeks I have been seeking God on what He wants me to do in ministry.
Of course my main ministry is to my Honey bear smookems and to my children ( Who will be entering the world in exactly a month I must add!)  But I felt like I was being called to do so much more! But what that was, I had no idea. Until now! Well, yesterday actually. I have always had a passion to minister to young women. Ever since I was eighteen. I would dream about having Bible studies with younger girls at my house. And encouraging them to fight the good fight! But I wasn't one hundred percent sure that was my calling in life. Until yesterday at Church I found out it really was! I've been praying for God to reveal this to me and like always He has never failed me. He was just waiting for the right moment to tell me.
 It was during the end of Church service. Our Pastor called people up to be prayed over that needed a special touch. I wasn't going up there for prayer but to lay hands on some of the ladies that needed prayer. The Lord revealed to me that this is my ministry through my Pastor. He gave me that look he always gives when The Lord has pressed on His heart to do something. And he called me closer and said. "This is your ministry" and he looked at our youth. Yes, I admit I was crying my eyes out yesterday. Which isn't something I normally do. I walked into the church wearing makeup and walked out all naturally ;). I'm so glad I finally know where I am supposed to be in the Church. To be a minister, a sister and a best friend to the younger generation of women. I wish I could say I knew this the whole time. But I can be stubborn. I mean God had to pretty much tell me to my face that I would marry Leon.. Actually He did! Well, through His people anyway. I don't know what exactly God wants me to do in Young women's ministry but you know what? I'm just gonna run with it and give it everything I got! Because God will use everything I have and everything He is in me! I honestly can't get more excited about this journey.