Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Hardest Moments From The First Year of Marriage.

The first year of Marriage is always different for everyone. For some it's their best and most easiest year, full of romance and well, you know! And for some it's not the easiest and even pretty difficult sometimes. This first year of Leon's and my marriage was a rough year but I have learned one very important thing this year and that is to never leave your partner behind!

Unfortunately when many couples get married, when they say their vowels and when "For better or for worse."  come from their lips they really only mean for the better. And that really makes my heart cry. Because in so many occasions the great stuff comes after the hard stuff.. But no one stays around and waits for the great stuff to come. & this saddens me because once the great and wonderful stuff comes all of the hard stuff is nothing afterwards.

 The first year was a pretty hard year for Leon and I. Leon worked for a company where sometimes he had work and sometimes he didn't and when I had to leave my job at Panera Bread because they weren't giving me enough hours. Well, that made money extremely tight. So when he did get a big check we really had to make it last until I got a different job which never happened because of the economy. Nobody was hiring.
Which was major inconvenience on our part.. Eventually Leon and I prayed about it and being a stay at home mom was my calling. We decided to trust God to provide our needs while I stayed home.

In late February I started having dreams and one vision of a little girl and me being a mother specifically. I knew I was going to have a girl first and that these were dreams of her but I didn't know it would be so soon. Until I received this one vision while I was sitting in a prophetic conference teaching of a baby girl and then the word "Fath" appeared. I honestly didn't  know what to think. "Maybe, I was gonna have another little girl named Faith?" And than it hit me.. The thought that I was pregnant crossed my mind. And I was terrified but so full of joy at the same time.  The thought of being a mama, carrying a baby inside of me, and just everything about Motherhood is just wonderful, I always knew I was going to be a mama, and it was always something I've dreamed of doing. I was really excited about meeting my little girl in 9 months but I was terrified by the fact that my husbands job wasn't a steady one.

But with that vision God has told me to be still and not to worry. To have Faith because He was going to provide our every need. And not long after Leon and I returned from the conference. Sure enough I was pregnant with my most favorite girl in the whole world!  I felt so much joy in my heart. I couldn't even describe it!

It was really hard for Leon the first three months of pregnancy because I had horrible morning sickness. I was seriously on bed rest the first few months because I couldn't keep anything down. My poor husband had no idea what to do!

And through out the year everything we needed was provided. Everything  for Evie's nursery and clothes, Leon's job increased financially. And when September came he finally got accepted in the police academy.
We're still just making enough to make ends meat. But we're trusting God for all of our needs and we know He will provide. It was a really hard year for us financially but I know this is just a season and the next season I'm believing that Leon and I will be so well off financially that we can bless others who are having the same financial issues  as we were.

Another hard thing for me specifically was I was moving into a place with two other loved ones. My Mama inlaw and my sister inlaw  Ashley. Leon and I never lived with each other before Marriage so I was not only getting to know my beloved hubby. His likes and dislikes I was also getting to know his mama and sister. It was really hard for me at first because we all live SOO differently and to top it all off I was an emotional pregnant woman going through morning sickness.. However. this is no longer an issue. I love these ladies. <3


Kim @ Pouring Down Like Rain said...

What a great post and a great blessing in your child and husband's job. God does work all things for the good of those who love Him who are called according to His purpose. :-) Kim

Sarah Nicole said...

What an awesome example of God's goodness! Isn't it awesome how He always takes such good care of His children? Love ya girl!

Ruthie Hart said...

I love that the Lord put motherhood on your heart before you felt ready. The first year of marriage is tough... so wonderful but full of figuring things out as husband and wife. I love that you trusted the Lord with your hubbys job and with your pregnancy (like you, I was and still am sick so it is hard at times!). Great post friend!!!

Bibi said...

What a heartfelt post! God is wonderful and He will always provide for you guys. He has a great plan for you!

Aww man, I remember the morning sickness. But what they say is true- it's worth it in the end ;)

Thanks for adding me :)

Veronica Lee Burns said...

It's so awesome to see how God speaks and provides!

Kalyn Randolph said...

Ohh, I love this post! The Lord is good all the time even when we think we cannot make it! I am so blessed to see that y'all have Him at the core and walked by faith! So glad you linked up with us and shared this! This was my main desire when creating the link-up! I hope other women feel just as inspired by marriage as I did when reading your post!

Laura Darling said...

I'm so glad everything ended up working out for the best for you guys! :)

kandis lake said...

What a great post! We also just celebrated a year of marriage! And what a great example of faith, thank you! I'm so glad I found your blog!